how one chances upon what has been 'asleep' for years...lol!
Well, now that I've refound my blog, perhaps it's time to awaken it... let's see how this goes...
My reflections lately have been how easy it is to be 'caught' in a trail of thoughts that are totally unhelpful and worse... untrue!! Yes, even Religious get that! Surprised? Don't be, the fact is that we are human too and subject to 'illusions' that lead us to ways that are not of God.
So, that's my conclusion, that the 'bad' thoughts are definately not from God but allowed by God, to help me know myself better and to recognise how God can and is leading and guiding me through those negative thoughts and feelings. I have learnt to acknowledge that I'm not as strong as I'd like to think I am and as such I do get 'lied' to by.... I do listen to those lies and make myself miserable at times but thankfully, there's the daybreak that clears the darkness and gives me new light and new hope so regularly. I must admit I still do sometimes get caught and wallow in it for a while, but thankfully, I now know that there's a reason and purpose for the feelings and experiences I go through and so now I just pray for the patience to unravel them. Each of these are genuine moments of learning and I'm grateful for them now... no, I'm not eager for these experiences, who likes feeling lousy eh. Still, I'm learning that each one has a meaning for me, for me to grow into maturity, not just with age but with the Spirit and that I do cherish.
